so its been over six weeks since i became a mum!!! yay!!! i love being a mother and i absolutely adore my little one, what i really hate is the 3 stone i put on during my pregnancy(the heaviest i've ever been!). I was so fit before i got pregnant and was so sure i could lose the weight after the little man came...boy was i wrung.
I attacked the gym before my six week check up because i just felt lousy- a cocktail of unsteady hormones, stiches, sagging tummy skin and a complete life change just pushed me to the edge and the gym was the only place i felt i could control things! wrung again!!! i quickly realised i had no tummy muscles, my legs were like jelly, my groin hurt like hell and my tree trunk thighs just wouldnt do what i told them to!
however i did not accept defeat and i just plodded on. a half hour of very high intesity training later, i collapsed on the floor in tears. it was a mixed feeling of exhaustion, fustration and endorphins....weird, i konw. It felt good and bad and horrible. i knew at that point i had to lose weight, i just didnt have a choice but i also realised it would not be as easy as it was first time around and this time i needed help!!!
i carried on with a mixture of aerobics, gyming, ridiculous diet after ridiculous diet which were so hard to follow, so i fell off the wagon but carried on as i was motivated with my own self loathing! for the first time in my life i avoided mirrors and also for the first time in my life i had saggy hanging skin!!!!! i'm only 22!!!
Anyhoo 2 weeks later and i still havent lost a signle pound, i havent added any on though(i might as well be a glass half full gal!!) and i want to start this journey and i want to start it right.
for the next few months i'm going to be blogging my feelings(yes another sappy emotional blog), how my 1200kcal and exercise plan is going and my amazing journey through motherhood.
i'm really excited about this diet as i feel i can do it, the exercise bit has always come a bit easier especially when i'm low and at the moment i dont feel like i can be any lower- a point to new couples- babies, no matter how amazing they are will put a strain on your relationship no matter how solid it is!!!
as i type this blog, me and hubby have fallen out yet again about little man's feeding routine!!! its trivial i know but these are really unstable times.
Anyhoo i've have my last piece of peanut butter and honey toast!!! it is amazing!!! and i'm on to my diet tomorrow!!!! another beginning in this new mummy's life!! hehehe xxx
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